Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Day 2 - The Chains That Bind

"Any act often repeated soon forms a habit; and habit allowed, steady gains in strength, At first it may be but as a spider's web, easily broken through, but if not resisted it soon binds us with chains of steel." - Tryon Edwards

When I was 14, I found a stack of adult magazines in my father's bedroom closet. I found the magazines quite fascinating. This was my introduction to porn and the long road towards porn addiction. If I would have known those magazine would have enslaved me, I wouldn't have touched them. Then again, what does a 14 year old know if he hasn't been told? Then in the mid 80's my family bought one of those huge satellite dishes to get free cable. Unfortunately, there was free porn available also. I used to get home an hour and a half before my parents did. So, I was able to watch these shows without challenge. 

Later, when I joined the military, I found pornography widely accepted. There were times at work where we would watch them while working. I eventually found my way to a video store and took out a membership card.  I ended up recording quite a collection for myself. By the time I was fully online in 1999, I was so far in over my head I didn't know what to do. 

After 28 years of continued input into my brain, the chains of steel have become quite strong indeed. Being free from porn addiction can be very hard indeed. At the moment, I'm looking forward to another successful day. I should be extremely busy today. This always seems to help. 



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